oh yeaaa I feel awesome hahaha , I'm on my final semester in college and it feels sooo awesome and yeah about the post before had some drama moments but anyways I'm good :P
so I've been in this diet and let me tell you it is not easy for first week but now I'm on my third week and I have lost 4 kilos just in 2 weeks so I can handle this -it is for four months btw- and yes I've been going to the gym as well , gym is just awesome I love the walking , the running and all the things in it
my project is on freeze at the moment because I'm waiting for the company to give me the approval to go and visit the site which they are lacking on as I heard .... hopefully it'll work on somehow .
I will be having advanced digital media which I'm soooooooo happy about this is the video shooting and using the after effect so it'll be something good !
and that's it thank you for reading *if there's any :P *
after reading a book and finishing it for
the first time has opened doors to me and as I went to shower after yelling at
everybody for eating my diet dinner which I ended up not eating anything and
hoping they would feel bad about what they done but minutes later I hear my
sister shouting "dinner!!" so now I'm sure no one cared about me or
my diet dinner .
ps: I'll be using the word "I" in
this –Whatever you call it - since it's my point of view.
As a girl I've been always thinking about
how beautiful marriage is , Marrying the one I've loved then having a nice job ,
a car , home and a little baby I'm guessing this is most of girls fantasy . and
I grew up and the word "Marriage" has disappeared from my head by
getting involved with life and how it is , and here I am after all the ups and
downs in my life , after knowing my goal and going forward to it while keeping
in mind the past mistakes so I wont fall on them again . All what can I think
about is my final semester and closing my last chapter in the college I'm
thinking about my project and how high my believes in it , I've been hearing
that a guy has came to ask for my hand who? I didn't know but I didn't care
much about it cuz I know now that "love" is a word that comes in
movies , but you can love your parents , sisters and friends but a guy ??
that's the biggest mistake you'll ever fall in . you can't have a relationship
with a guy it's wrong and you'll be hated if you did that . anyways back to me
in my sister engagement which she had also chosen a man she doesn't know very
much but she had worked with him for some time so she was confident enough to
say yes to him , I have been told who is he since I started to feel weird when
his mother hugged me and said " hopefully we will be happy for you soon"
. my mother has told me that they went to ask for another girl hand but when
they saw the guy who asked for my sister hand got accepted they felt that it's
better to come to my family and ask for my hand instead of a strangers daughter
. and sometimes I feel sorry for them since my grandfather has abandon them
from marring any of his 10 daughter they have lost hope and when my father
broke that law he opened this door for them .
If you'r asking about my opinion to this
... I don't know anymore , my mother and father are happy about him , my
aunts"the 10 daughters" demanding to reject him , my sister has said
her famous word since she flew very far away to study " If you said yes to
them I'm not your sister " my friends has told me that I shouldn't take
him because he's from the family . and me my mind is saying no but my heart
stays silent because I don't want to hear to my heart , I don't know the guy
but I have seen him few time nearly to imposable , I don't know his thoughts ,
his likings or the way he lives and if I wanted to know it'll be to late to
turn my back and say NO , sometimes I wonder if I will really meet the one or
will I be just like the rest of the girls and blend in and live with someone
who doesn't care if I have feelings for him or no .
hello there my old friends and the new ones and the ones who are just checking out , I've got a keek account I post random things , feel free to check it and maybe like and subscribe ? have a great day !!
The account is https://www.keek.com/rudy_alcrazy
it's been a week now since everybody in our home got this flu,fever thing . I'm more of a person who just ignore it but today I feel a little fever headache although I took a medicine which I totally don't believe that it works ,,,, anyways I've been working on my project report and I can't wait to start working on the 3D map , I've been loving how I sit and write those chapters non stop I even stay all day writing I mean it is tiring to find the right words our how to start in a new topic but I'm working on that , yesterday the mister complemented me by saying that my report is starting to shape beautifully it really made me happy cuz I thought I was lost a little , well actually I still think I'm lost here and there cuz acting the strong one is starting to tier me since I'm a person who HAVE to plan every single thing so there's no way a thing can go wrong cuz I'm also a person who hate to fail I just can't take it easily but I stand and try again and the second time wont ever be like the first , I still didn't like the word " move on " with my life cuz for a moment back then I've planed to be with the person I liked "loved" for at least 7 years <- that was my plan about my last relationship , but I wasn't seeing what was I doing , I've hurted the person I liked "loved" more than once but I never saw it and he never talked about it till it all went down the hill " as he said" I couldn't get it but since that day I've been thinking about it and I did got it but now it's too late to look back , so I've been rejecting whoever tries to be with me cuz nothing is going to be better than what I got there " that's what I think it is" but for real even if a guy liked you it wont ever work is at the end of the day I'll marry a guy who doesn't know I exist , he'll just ask his sisters or mother to look for a wife for him , or he might seen me in work .
What I'm trying to say is there is no " love" in this side of the world or at least my family you can't "love" a person because it will simply wont work the way I've planned for it , it's so stupid but this is how it works , my sister is getting engaged and they are hinting for his younger brother to purpose to me " I think" but I don't want to cuz I don't know him and I don't want to , I just hate that fact of " ow now we have to take all the girls from that family just because ... "
when someone starts talking to me about marrige I feel like my parents are giving me to a total stranger and asking me to love him and live my rest life with him , I just hate it so much from the deep of my broken hurted heart , and I miss the person I truly loved before .
at the end of the day those are just my fever hallucinations .
I was going through some picz and I saw this 101 dalmatian puppies and I had this sweet feeling of how beautiful my childhood was , now looking to the new cartoons are not nice and not having that magic the old ones got , and I'm only talking about the old disney Movies but if you came to the old anime we used to watch woooow it was another world even the way they drew it was different now it feels like it's not detailed as before just sketching quickly and showing it , I don't mean by all the anime and movies there is those few good ones still out there , here are just few of them that I could find and remember , enjoy